I'm living in a giant circle.
Not literally (though...). I mean an imaginary circle where things are just expected of me. My friend and I were talking a few days ago about our futures and what we wanted out of our lives and we got into the topic of kids. We're 17 and way too young to have this conversation, but this is what we do. Anyway, she didn't want kids at all and has no desire to ever have one, which I found completely weird. I guess I just assumed everyone wanted kids and wanted to have these families and then this chick comes in and throws me off balance. I thought, "OK, I can accept this. Some people just don't like kids.", but then she starts telling me these things that are completely different than what I was raised to believe.
And then it hits me.
I'm living a tradition life.
You know that kind where you go to college, get married, and have kids all in that order kind of life. If you still don't understand what I'm trying to explain then let me draw you a picture...
Don't get me wrong, I want kids and want to get married. All the circle is going to get me is a comfortable life. And there's nothing wrong with that. It's just it might not be all that I want.
Did I explain this well enough or did I just ramble for the hell of it?
No, it's very understandable, but I think I'm the friend who doesn't want kids here.
ReplyDeleteThe feeling of possessing potential freaks me out. When I look down that road I don't want to act on it, because I can't picture myself acting on it.
I'm right there with ya, Chloe. Everyday I'm like dying because I wanna be traveling the world meeting amazing people and seeing unbelievable things but instead I'm in college like every other 19 year old because I'm too scared to take a chance. Life sucks.
ReplyDeleteI KNOW! And then right after college we MUST find a job or else all the good one's will be taken and we'll end up working at Taco Hell or something.
ReplyDeleteHey, I could go for the free tacos...
ReplyDeleteMallory and I have a friend who works at Taco Bell. His name is CARRRRL. He's 36 and is the night manager. Maybe we could work there.
ReplyDeleteMaybe we SHOULD work there..
ReplyDeleteWhat's this I hear about the fluff war?! I don't know how to message you on here so I'm just commenting you, you can email me if ya want at ngausch@gmail.com